I do believe you know me, and remember me, but if you don't I'm you.
I'm going to be better at this, I used to be pretty great, and then some stuff went down and I wasn't myself anymore. I think I'm back though, I think I'm better. I've been going to this parenting class for a while now... Yeah, I don't plan on having kids for a while, but this information has proven to be very useful for me. Lately I've been having trouble finding reasons to keep on going. I've been in a pretty deep depression, and last night while my insomnia was overwhelming, and my sleep aides hadn't kicked in yet, I decided to stop letting myself think of reasons not to live, but to find every reason possible to live, and to write them all down in a journal that I'll take every where with me. So now that you're all updated on me and my issues, on to the real point of this post...
To my future spouse: I do a lot of thinking about you, I don't think we've met yet, but I hope I get to meet you soon enough. I want to make some promises to you right now that I will keep forever. I promise to love you with all of my heart. I promise never to physically hurt you. I promise that I will do my very best to never emotionally hurt you. I promise never to hide you from my family and friends. I know that my family is tough to deal with, but if I love you, I hope that they'll love you too. You will meet them all some day. They're really great, even with the issues that they have with me, and will probably have with you. I know that you're great and we'll handle this together. I promise never to harm the beautiful children that I know we will have, I'll be the best mom ever for you and for them. I promise I'll be with you until the very end, through thick and thin, better or worse, sickness or health. Some days I might forget these promises, just bring me right back to this page and make me remember. I love you now, even though we haven't met yet, and I'll love you forever.
Alright, to the rest of you thanks for bearing with my hopeless romanticism. I know sometimes my rambling on about this stuff gets tough to read, but I'm on a journey. The Journey for a better life...
