Change is inevitable

Its very interesting looking back at who I was and who I've become, I know I didn't keep my blog updated much of 2011, and that was mostly for me, I needed to do some growing up and changing. I am a whole new person, I am happy, I am who I want to be, I am not who others tell me I should be. I know there are moments in life that get pushed under the rug, but with the things that are going on this year, change was inevitable. I embrace that change. A year ago I was afraid for my life, I didn't know who where or what I wanted to be. So maybe I don't have all those answers yet, but I am no longer afraid for my life, I trust and love my family, and if they want to know something about my life I'll gladly tell them,whether they are accepting or not. Being in the closet of life is unhealthy I can't be afraid of who I am. As the year 2011 comes to a close I have no regrets, I spent my time well, I met new people, I worked my tail off, I let go of old friends and welcomed the new. I know friends are important to have. The occasional day away from family with your friends is good. I've grown to love my family as though they were my only friends in the world. I've watched my niece grow up to become a beautiful toddler and she means the world to me. If I had to give everything up all I would want is my family. They are the best thing to have ever happened to me. I am not the LuEllen you all started out reading about. I am no longer "Just LuEllen" I am SO much more. I'm not done learning and I never will be, but I've finally realized that I'm worth it. I've spent my time telling other people that they were worth another day, but I never told myself that I was. So say goodbye to the LuEllen you knew and welcome in the new me!