What I'm too afraid to say...

...but not too afraid to post for the World Wide Web to see. I haven't moved on because I'm afraid to. I'm afraid no one will love me like you did. I'm afraid I'm not worthy of love. I'm afraid that no one will see what you saw in me. I'm afraid I'll be judged because I'm not the perfect ten that I felt like I was to you even if I wasn't. I'm afraid I don't know how to love like that again. I'm afraid that all I will be good for is someone's friend. When we were together you were more than just my girlfriend, you were my lover, my best friend, and someone I could tell everything to. I haven't moved on yet because there is no one in this rotten old town capable of filling your shoes. I've known for a while now that I'll never be able to call you mine again, but I've wished I could. Even for just one more day. I pour my heart and soul into this blog every so often because I know it isn't capable of hurting me. Sure it could fall into the wrong hands like it has done before, but this is the only place worth my trust.