Having a rough go at things...

My family doesn't seem to want to be on my side. I wish they could see things from my point of view. They don't think I believe in god, or religion. But I do, I believe in god, and I wish so much that I could be closer with him.  I don't believe so much in organized religion, but I do believe in similar things to most religions, I don't believe however that god is going to punish me for loving someone of the same gender. I  don't think that god even about that, as long as I am happy, I believe god love and accepts everyone for who they are.  So, I've recently been converted to loving Glee, and I was watching this weeks episode, and it helped me so much, I feel like I've connected the best to that episode. If you haven't seen it and plan on watching it, I won't ruin it for you, but it was amazing.  I'm learning how to deal with this on my own, I'm trying my hardest, but some times, it just isn't enough, I wish I could turn to my mom, or siblings, or someone, who was here with me, that could just understand, I do attend DiverCity (a type of GSA) but it isn't enough. I still hurt. I want to be taken care of , I need to find an outlet, even more, I need to be okay, even for just a day.