It's been a long time coming.

I feel so old. I feel like I have an old soul. I'm only 20 years old and I'm ready to settle down. I guess I caused enough chaos in my teens that I just don't feel the need to date much at all or any for that matter considering its been so damn long since I've actually been on a real date. However I want to settle down and be in a committed relationship. Live somewhere that isn't my parents house, have a job that means something, and have the life I've always dreamed of. I guess all that has gone on in the last year has made me do a lot of growing up. So much so that I want to skip all the necessary steps to get to the place I actually want to be. I know full well that that isn't possible at all. I still haven't fully come out of the closet yet, and that definitely HAS to happen I don't like to live my life in secret. Coming out is just about the only option there is. It isn't easy meeting girls when you can't broadcast to the world over Facebook that you're single and interested in the same sex. Especially in southern Utah. I know most people already know who I am, but you know what they say! It isn't official until its on Facebook :) so maybe that's my next goal, officially coming out of the damn closet. I mean the whole point of this stupid blog was for me to figure out myself and become the me I've always wanted to be. I'll forever be on the journey, the journey for a better life.