We Will Become Silhouettes

I’m struggling. I don’t know what it is, maybe its the people I choose to surround myself with? Doing my best to stay positive in the situation we’re currently in. I’m over the jokes. I’m over the hype about what everyone is watching on Netflix. I’m tired of seeing people speak as though they are the experts on the issues. I’m tired of people shaming others about their habits. The world is going through something most of us have never seen before. Everyone adjusts in their own time. We’ll get there.

Okay that’s enough of that. 

I have a really cool tattoo artist. He’s someone I genuinely enjoy talking to. Every time I see him, he makes a point to ask how my personal progress is going. I appreciate that about him. Last time I saw him, we talked about my writing. He said never delete anything. So now I have drafts that eventually I’ll get back to and decide if I want to share them. 

I think putting the pressure on myself to write weekly has brought me to a point where I don’t feel like I can think critically anymore. I don’t feel creative. My writing journal has sat untouched for weeks. I’m struggling to find something to be excited about. I had a number of events I was really looking forward to that have been postponed. I’ve had events in my personal life that have created difficulties. I’ve even struggled talking to MYSELF about them because I don’t feel rational in the situation. My irrational brain and I are not friends. 

So, I’ve said before that I like to listen to music as I write. Some people might find it distracting but for me its just something to keep my mind occupied. So when I power up the computer or my iPad to get to work, my first step is to open Apple Music and pick a playlist or artist and get to work. If what I initially pick doesn’t help move my brain I pick something else. Today I was inspired to pick The Postal Service and the 10th anniversary edition of their album Give Up. It’s funny how often times the music I choose is indicative of what I write about in the current week. 

The Postal Service Give Up Deluxe 10th Anniversary edition

I hope you’re all doing well. This social distancing is tough, even on us introverts. I hope you’ll take time to check on your friends and family and find something other to talk about than current political events, because for a lot of us this is just draining. Sooner or later our hard work will pay off and we’ll all be able to see the people we miss and the people that inspire us again.